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I am an it-girl

We like to talk about it. Rumors, fictions, speculations, researches, interviews of someone claimed to know something about it, yet we cannot talk about it openly and directly as we wanted to talk. That does not mean we cannot talk about it. How we talk and what we talk is crucial, perhaps.

Let’s talk about it.

We can mask it as academic issues or freedom of expression to make it fit with ways to talk about it, and make it seem like a historical fact, an issue worth panel discussion or to be studied, an unknown terrain we would like to reveal and investigate from a certain distance with certain sets of rhetoric, grammar and setting. There is actually a big gap when you talk about it.

With friends, heard it as a rumor, or through forwarded emails however how “inappropriate” it could be, yet so far I have never heard a mass arrest. With colleagues, probably the tone, languages and how you approach it must be different. In a panel, you might find that it is quite difficult to articulate something, probably when you have to meet audience’s expectation. Finally no one cannot publicly say anything much about it because of the law, the setting, the mood and tone of that panel and public/self censoring stuffs.

They said don’t be a hero.

We reach an academic conclusion that it is important and it is difficult to talk about it.

We like transgression, then expect self-punishment from difficulties following a discussion of it in the wrong time at the wrong place.

But after a while, content matters.

My friend went to a sexuality conference and asked if I know a slang. I have never known it in my daily life. She said it was rude. But in a panel, a panelist address each of them impersonally, for academic freedom and the progress of sexuality research. Almost every slangs were not left unturned to test academic freedom.

Yet, the final conclusion, Thai people are not open about sex, they cannot discuss sex openly, even the academic do not conduct plenty researches so we have to, for academic progress, talk more and more about it.

But in the end, what is in the closet might be a boring, wear out, ambiguous and much repeated statements.

It is already in the air. We may keep the most fierce debates among ourselves and trusted ones.

Yet, at the sexuality conference, my friend don’t complained “I don’t have enough of it. The conference was over saturated with it, revolved around with expectation of it, and they talked about every nukes and crannies of it until I am sick of it.”


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